Wow! The past couple of days have been awfully difficult mentally on me and I am now not so sure if I have made the right choice or chosen the right time.
You see, on Thursday afternoon, on a whim, I quit smoking.
I am currently 54 hours and 45 minutes smoke free.
I have faced the old social occasion, smoking association ( with coffee, in the morning and after a meal etc) and have even spent the past 2 days with people smoking in my presence.
The most difficult thing thus far has been the lack of concentration and anxiety!
Which is why I am saying that I am unsure of my timing.
I have 2 cake orders next week and one the week after ( all big ones). That along with my training and healthy eating plan is making this very very very difficult indeed.
I awoke this morning feeling much better than the day before and not freaking out about missing my morning cigarette which was really promising.
The other thing I did was, instead of sit outside and smoke, I got on the treadmill and ran at 7.5kmh for half an hour which was quite invigorating.
My Mum and Grandpa then dropped in and smoked their lungs out in front of me.
I went down the street for some more coffee, which I am drinking a considerable amount of, some nicotine patches ( as 2 fell off today. 1 in the shower and 1 on the tready!) and a nicotine inhaler for my worst time. After dinner.
It was only when I got home that I started going downhill.
I felt nauseous, anxious and lethargic all in one
I rested for a lot more of the afternoon,watching a DVD and snacking on rice crackers with dip.
Dinner was takeaway for the family and prawn wonton soup for me.
I then went to Werribee to pick my daughter up from a party and, the whole drive home, I kept thinking of how mad the week to come is going to be. I just hope that, come Monday, I am feeling a little more at ease.
Well, so far I have managed to not totally pig out savouring one chuppa chupp lollipop for the day although there are times I feel as though I could eat a horse and chase the jockey!
Thats all for now.
Hope you are all happy healthy peeps!
Neen xo
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2 comments:
So Proud of you chooky and yes my darling it is hard but is there ever really a 'right' time or will there always be something that makes you doubt your decision. You are doing so great honey and to get through it with people smoking around you at this stage of the game is incredible. I am behind you 101% of the way honey and have complete faith in you. Oh I hadn't put my dinner in as we went out so no need to whoop my butt. I love ya babe and am missing you too. Have a good day tomorrow and just know that you have the ability to do anything you set your mind to. Mwah XOXO
Don't be too hard on yourself, you are doing amazing and like tash said to quit smoking when there are people around you smoking and not give in shows how strong you are. You can do this! keep up the amazing work. we are all behind you 110%.
look after yourself xx
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